today is a big day for me...it's the 2nd anniversary of my dress rehearsal for death...and apparently, no one remembers! Guess it's not THEIR anniversary so...not something they would remember. i have been thinking about it a lot this week. Last year, not so much because..i was still in so much pain, still dealing with and experiencing very present signs that the heart attack was still a "today" experience for me....last year, everyday was a battle to get through the day NOT fretting "should I go to the ER because of these chest pains?" so...no reflection on the event last year. In fact, my buddy Teeto even collected funds at work and they presented me with a frozen turkey(recognizing that I only eat turkey!) along with a really nice card signed by everyone at work celebrating my one year anniversary. but, that was then.
Since the Lord healed me this past January and took away the presence of pain on my left side, I wake up each day with only a memory of the constant pain I endured in my chest...thankful each day since January that I have been healed and my heart is 100% restored...a perfect heart..no damage! Thank God!
today...funny, no one even remembers...I can't forget! I woke up at 6am, got into my truck and drove... to the hospital, parked my truck where I did 2 years ago...and walked into the ER and sat down and just reflected on the events of that morning.
I remember the sheer loneliness of being alone in all of this...no one was with me, no one there to share the fear that all of this was really happening to me, only to me...a 49 year old me..it was frightening!
So...two years later--no one has said a word, and...i am not going to even mention it...not going to bring it up,but...I know! I know that it's MY anniversary..the only anniversary that I do NOT share with anyone!
And...I am grateful...that God spared me 2 years ago today..My dress rehearsal with death...
Not ready for a Last Curtain Call...I have a few more acts left in this play I call life...not at the last scene yet! Nope...I am hoping for a Revival of sorts! a long run...as I act out this script called life--
thankful that God said...not yet, go back and do more of what I called you to do! Just do it all for me!
And I recommit Lord, today...to doing it all for you...I know you didn't forget what today was... when you woke me up at the exact same time I was awakened 2 years ago..so I could retrace my steps of that day...the Day God Spared My Life!
So...I am NOT Gone...and for others in my life...they have forgotten but..I will NEVER forget!
God is on the throne...and I lift my hands,heart and voice in praise of His Miracle in Me!
